I would like to tell the world but I need to keep it inside. For god sake, I LOVE HER so fucking much

Do whatever the shit you want, get me really fucked over, I don’t mind, I’m not going to stop loving you.

You have no idea how much I love you, and I almost think it’s a good thing, because I think it would scared you, I don’t think you could understand, and neither to feel the same. So, I don’t see the point to ler you know the truth.

I’ve learned something, of course that I can live without him, but I can’t be happy in this situation, my saddest is so strong, than it leave no place to happiness, for now, I’m stuck between the fact that I desperately want to be with him but that I don’t want to mess it up again, I don’t want him to think that I am playing with his feelings. And actually, I can’t tell him that I still love him so much because I’m scared to find out, he’s done with me, to see he has moved on, that he’s going to find someone else. I can’t stand to the idea of seeing him with another girl, I love him so much, but I’m a curse, I can’t make him happy, just so he can’t really make me happy neither, at least not all the time, I was so fucking tired of our problems. I miss them now, I wish we could still be trying to make things work out. It’s my fault, I gave up on us, I changed my mind now, but it’s too late. The thing is, I love you.

I love her.

This is easier to see the wrong part of a story than the good ones, because once something hurts you, whatever happen, something is broken.

I know it’s a mistake, but I need to make it, because I think there’s a chance it can works, and it could be my greatest mistake.

Nothing as changed, I still love you, and you still don’t even know. I couldn’t find the strength to tell you, it scares me to death, I can’t lose you, so I rather be only a simple friend than be become a stranger. I’m a fucking coward, And I’m so weak. Loving you isn’t that easy, I’m wasting all my energy to think of you, to imagine what we could be, to try to live without you, it’s hard you know, because you’re always in my mind, but you’re never there, I need to keep my head busy, but I can’t, it makes me happy to think of you. I would even say that, loving you is what im doing better.

Could it be true?  Can I find myself in you?  I need you to know, I might be falling in love with you, I’m dying, I need you, I need us.  I’ll wait for you, always, can you feel the same for me, i’m begin you.   I feel so bad,  it makes me wanna die, I’ve been trying to fight, I’m tired of this, it’s scared me.  Can somebody out there understand? I love girls, I think, I’m not even sure, I don’t know anything anymore.  But I know that in I close my eyes, when I’m all alone, I want her, and when I see her, I wanna kiss her.  I just wish she could love me, and that we could find the strength to be together.  There’s someday I just wanna srew up with my life, what’s the point, i’m so scared of the future, I’m just not sure I wanna live it.  

Something you said, stayed in my head, it’s pushing my down, I love you